My life, as I know it, is OVER!!
It’s not that some things aren’t working for me; but this whole way of daily life simply isn’t for me, and frankly never was.
After years of constantly and successfully wooing and enticing me, my flippant, fragmented, constantly interrupted, obligated, effortlessly distracted, multi-demanding, easily lead, self-excuse laden, social expectation filled, to do list centric, I can fight many fires – all at once, ‘oh, look over there’ life is emphatically OVER. Its tombstone solemnly reads:
Life as I Knew It
21 August 1970 – 7 May 2011
Here lays my dearly departed dysfunctional life.
Thank you for being a fun, light-hearted and a truly distracting side of my life over the years.
I have you now as a distant memory.
In my wide-awake and passionate quest to positively change my life (one percent a day) my toughest challenge is transforming my innate and deeply grooved modus operandi or simply my approach to life.
And it needed changing – desperately.
Like many of us I can ‘do a lot’. I’m pretty organised. I plan. I deliver. I deliver on time. I deliver on budget. I’m motivated. I’m genuinely enthusiastic and energetic, I know my work intimately and I truly find my work and life irresistible. I’m not lazy. I don’t cut corners. I don’t have many excuses. I don’t apologise for my work, or lack of it and I’m not too busy, exhausted, tired or ‘over it’.
So why the desperate need to change?
Because, again as per the norm, even though I’m active and productive, I’m also uber prone to procrastination and worse – stagnancy.
For example (I’m sure I’m not Robinson Crusoe, maybe you can relate to a few of these too and have your own).
- On any given day, I’m constantly temped to aimlessly hang out in Outlook– all day if I let myself.
- I’m great at digging myself into a deep trench of reactive responding and replying to email, voicemail and phone demands first thing in the morning.
- I’m vulnerable to fooling myself into seriously focused ‘metawork’ (tasks that may make me feel productive, but in the end produces no real results).
- I’m highly susceptible to a night of pottering from room to room at home, tinkering, surfing (channels/Facebook/blogs)
- And, I have an evil affliction of meticulously planning in my mind my approach to 11 different major projects – all tomorrow.
Even though things were getting done well and on time, I knew I was only skimming the surface of what I could potentially bring to the table and under utilising my ability to focus on much richer and longer term outcomes.
Even though I’m treading a path to recovery now, it’s an arduous journey and a daily battle.
I still often reach the end of a day, or worse, the end of a weekend with that dreaded unproductive feeling.
Not the one that just says “Geez, I could have done more with my time”. No, mine’s way worse!
My sublime feeling is that I could have done far less with my time and accomplished much more.
I regret mindlessly spending time racing around and focusing on pressing and urgent ‘stuff’ (half of which wasn’t mine) rather than wisely investing time in just a few people or ideas that would make a much larger and more positive impact in my life in the near and far future, and importantly the lives of others.
In short, my trajectory now is to use myself for productive good and not procrastinating evil.
Over the next week or so, I’d love to share some interesting research, rich ideas and amazingly simple techniques I’ve found to three point turn myself in a new direction that’s more enjoyable, chilled, valuable, rich and rewarding.
A sneak peek at Monday’s post: ‘Living a Q2 Life’
Hailing from Stephen Covey’s best-selling book The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, this fundamental idea for productive time organisation has the most impact on my life. As Stephen explains most people are driven by the concept of urgency, but to really effect positive change in our lives, we need to reorganise the way we spend our time; based on the concept of importance – not urgency.